losing the plot and hiding in toilets.

nothing monster hit me or rather
that is negative monster this time.
this negative monster is very scareing me.
this negative ness is very similar with gravitation. collapse.

i have to say.
i am increadiblly weakened.
im not saying i am weak. maybe....not. or i don't know.
but at least now i am really weakened.
and fuckin negative. this is really shit.

but i don't want to be real shit.
so i will try to go flying with shining power later.
yes later. but maybe not now.
and i don't know when. but later definitly.
i haven't given up. i'm still hanging..... later later.....
am i ? yes???

im not confused.
rather very calm.
but this calm ness is more than boring.
this is despair. d e s p a i r.

重力が。人の心を地の底まで引きずり込む。